HERE AM I

You know, one thing about being sick for many years is that you get a different perspective on life. I used to (and still sometimes do) worry a lot. I would worry what people think. I would worry about if I am doing the right thing. I would worry about what was about to happen and then after it happened I would worry if it went alright. I am sure you you are all familiar with these kinds of feelings. THIS IS WHAT CHANGED... I got a revelation. It is an understanding that my time on this earth is temporary. It is an understanding that God made me to be right here, right now, at this time, in this exact spot, every second, no matter where I am. And most importantly, God created me the way I am. I do not have to strive to be something I am not. I am a talker. I am not afraid to tell someone the truth straight no matter how difficult the situation or person. I am fun and so on and so forth. Who cares? The point is, every breath I take and every step I make (this is starting to sound like a "Police" song from the 80's;) I am here to be me in whatever situation. God likes me and I should too. In fact, God likes you and He created you with all of your silly looks and silly ways. All of us are so unique and we add so much to what ever room we stand in or what ever crowd we hang out in. Sometimes I think society is in a race to become a barbie and ken doll physically and socially with the camper pulling the speed boat. What would the world be like without Whoopi on The View or Hurly from LOST or Dany DeVito in Taxie? What would your small world of friends be like if everyone was Barbie and Ken and each dream house was compared to the next? I can guess it would be SO BORING! So, instead of worrying about how I look or where I am or what I should do... I just show up being 100% me and ride the adventure of life with what ever situations or people may come across my path. I also feel that people come across my path for a reason. There is something I can learn from each person I encounter and there is sometimes some bits of life experience I can share with them as well. So next time you walk into a room realize that you are there for a reason and you can do and say things being who you are and really make a difference in this world. Ah I am remonicent of an old black and white Hitchcock movie called "Harvey" with James Stewart where he says "I always have a wonderful time, where I am and whomever I am with."